Friday, August 27, 2010
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
busy day
I didnt get to take a pic today. super busy crazy day. so, i'll just put a few of my very fav pics up from Easter.
Sunday, August 22, 2010
fast run down.
1.Trinity and i both cried a lot the first day of school. me more than her.
2.2nd day of school was a little better. i didnt get to walk her to class,so that made her upset. and me even more upset.
3.when i picked her up the 2nd day. the line of cars behind me was not moving. I had to stop by the car that was not moving.so i looked over at the driver to see what was up. the mom was passed out and had a cig in her mouth.nice right?
4. I have 3 break lights on my car. and of course 2 reverse light. well one reverse light has been out for a while.one break light went out not long ago. i saw the other day that i had 2 break lights out. *both on the sides* so the only one working was at the top. Nikki has the same type car and year as me and had told me there was a recall on the lights. but my car place never sent me a recall and they have for other things that have been recalled so i didnt think it was part of it till i read more about the recall " light bulbs get to hot and stop working on and off and then go out". I dont wan to take my car up to the shop and pay 50 bucks if its not the recall. ya know? I take it to the parts place that knows patrick and gets tattoos. i have the guy look and them. i have no clue how to. or i didnt but i do now. he takes the ones that went out on the right side of my car...the ones that went out first. pulls them out and looks and tells me "your car almost caught fire"
the bottom of the light bulbs..were they hook into my car.....were MELTED! and no thats not normal.*i had to ask* the other side was just burnt out.
5.after the light bulb thing i dropped trinity off to stay the night with my mom. I went to a concert. YAY free tickets! it was great and felt good to get out of the house and do something. even if doing something was just me sitting somewhere that was real loud. lol
2.2nd day of school was a little better. i didnt get to walk her to class,so that made her upset. and me even more upset.
3.when i picked her up the 2nd day. the line of cars behind me was not moving. I had to stop by the car that was not moving.so i looked over at the driver to see what was up. the mom was passed out and had a cig in her mouth.nice right?
4. I have 3 break lights on my car. and of course 2 reverse light. well one reverse light has been out for a while.one break light went out not long ago. i saw the other day that i had 2 break lights out. *both on the sides* so the only one working was at the top. Nikki has the same type car and year as me and had told me there was a recall on the lights. but my car place never sent me a recall and they have for other things that have been recalled so i didnt think it was part of it till i read more about the recall " light bulbs get to hot and stop working on and off and then go out". I dont wan to take my car up to the shop and pay 50 bucks if its not the recall. ya know? I take it to the parts place that knows patrick and gets tattoos. i have the guy look and them. i have no clue how to. or i didnt but i do now. he takes the ones that went out on the right side of my car...the ones that went out first. pulls them out and looks and tells me "your car almost caught fire"
the bottom of the light bulbs..were they hook into my car.....were MELTED! and no thats not normal.*i had to ask* the other side was just burnt out.
5.after the light bulb thing i dropped trinity off to stay the night with my mom. I went to a concert. YAY free tickets! it was great and felt good to get out of the house and do something. even if doing something was just me sitting somewhere that was real loud. lol
starting today *sunday*
at the first of the year my sister started doing this thing were she would take a pic of something..anything everyday. she didnt do it very long.but i think i'll try it. I might be a day or so late on posting everything .But,i'm going to take a pic every day. stuff that makes me happy/sad/think. or that i just think is cool or pretty. I'll do some with my good cam,some with my ok cam and some with my iphone.
Friday, August 20, 2010
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Trinity starts school in how many hours?
I cant sleep,I'm trying not to cry right now....just thinking about what i'm going to do in a few hours.
I sound like im going to do something really bad *like kill someone*.
Its the leaving her part that is getting me. i know she'll be fine,she'll have fun and she'll like it.
When i start getting real upset i start thinking about this 5 year old little girl i heard about. she died out of nowhere one night. turns out she had a huge tumor *that they never knew about*that turned out to be cancer around her brain and was growing so fast,that the drain tube they had put in ended up smashed due to her brain being pushed on to it.i keep thinking about that poor girl and her mom. how her mom would give anything to be able to use the school stuff she had just gotten her little girl,walk her into class and cry like a baby and watch the clock like a hawk till it was time to go pick her up again and hear all about her first day of school.
I will have tons of pics to up on here.
Monday, August 16, 2010
Today...W-O-W. what next?
last week and so far this week have been bad.but today has been REAL bad.
when i found out i was preg. i got the paper work for medicaid. no big deal right? i had it for birth control...Trinity has ARKIDS.So it should be easy right? WRONG! so the first time they game me the wrong paper work.after that mess....I call them and ask what is the right paper work i need. was told i would only need to fill out 2 papers as they had all my info for the birth control and Trinitys arkids. they send the right paper work to me and i get it the next day. fill it out and send it off. they have 48 days to get back to me if i get it or not. well about 2 weeks after i send the paper off they send me a TON of paper work and tell me i have less than a week to get it back to them along with a note from a nurse/dr saying im preg along with the due date. I'm thinking "your kidding right" nope,not at all.I get that crap done. i make sure everything is filled out right, ask and make them look at it and everything i have to make sure everything is there. yes yes its all good,now the waiting game.i get a call today *they had till the 14th to get back to me but since that was a weekend i get monday* I turned down. WHAT THE FUCK!!!! TOOK EVERY AND I MEAN EVERYTHING I HAD NOT TO SCREAM THAT AT THE LADY!
I ask why i was turned down. and she tells me. i was turned down cuz i didnt give them anything from the bank about my cars saying i didnt own them.the banks still do.i say i was not told i had to do that or i would have. she said its on the paper.....no its not on the paper on the paper it gives you a space to put how much you owe.not "WHO" owns it it also says to put whos name the car is in....thats it!! she tells me i would have gotten it IF i would have had that ^%$$%#$$#@#@@#!@~~!@#$%^&*(((!!!!!!!!!!
I'm 19 weeks along right now and the only time i have seen a dr was the 2 times in the ER!
i dont have to money to pay upfront like they all want. i only found a hand full drs that would see me when i had pending medicaid. then top it off with being "high risk" now there were only 2 drs that would see me. i can see pretty much any dr but thats going to cost out the ass. i just got all my er bills. not so bad only about 500 bucks...do i have that money? nope. its the slow season at the shop.so i never know how much money we will have. its going to cost a lot when i go to the dr since my placenta is low they will do more ultra sounds cuz they wont do a pelvic check up cuz that could make me bleed.so im stuck paying a lot for ultra sounds. but im trying for medicad again since i know i can get it now with all the right paper work.but i'll have to wait 48 more days to find out. so i'll be close to 7 months by then.
so as you can see i'm stuck ...and dont know what to do.
when i found out i was preg. i got the paper work for medicaid. no big deal right? i had it for birth control...Trinity has ARKIDS.So it should be easy right? WRONG! so the first time they game me the wrong paper work.after that mess....I call them and ask what is the right paper work i need. was told i would only need to fill out 2 papers as they had all my info for the birth control and Trinitys arkids. they send the right paper work to me and i get it the next day. fill it out and send it off. they have 48 days to get back to me if i get it or not. well about 2 weeks after i send the paper off they send me a TON of paper work and tell me i have less than a week to get it back to them along with a note from a nurse/dr saying im preg along with the due date. I'm thinking "your kidding right" nope,not at all.I get that crap done. i make sure everything is filled out right, ask and make them look at it and everything i have to make sure everything is there. yes yes its all good,now the waiting game.i get a call today *they had till the 14th to get back to me but since that was a weekend i get monday* I turned down. WHAT THE FUCK!!!! TOOK EVERY AND I MEAN EVERYTHING I HAD NOT TO SCREAM THAT AT THE LADY!
I ask why i was turned down. and she tells me. i was turned down cuz i didnt give them anything from the bank about my cars saying i didnt own them.the banks still do.i say i was not told i had to do that or i would have. she said its on the paper.....no its not on the paper on the paper it gives you a space to put how much you owe.not "WHO" owns it it also says to put whos name the car is in....thats it!! she tells me i would have gotten it IF i would have had that ^%$$%#$$#@#@@#!@~~!@#$%^&*(((!!!!!!!!!!
I'm 19 weeks along right now and the only time i have seen a dr was the 2 times in the ER!
i dont have to money to pay upfront like they all want. i only found a hand full drs that would see me when i had pending medicaid. then top it off with being "high risk" now there were only 2 drs that would see me. i can see pretty much any dr but thats going to cost out the ass. i just got all my er bills. not so bad only about 500 bucks...do i have that money? nope. its the slow season at the shop.so i never know how much money we will have. its going to cost a lot when i go to the dr since my placenta is low they will do more ultra sounds cuz they wont do a pelvic check up cuz that could make me bleed.so im stuck paying a lot for ultra sounds. but im trying for medicad again since i know i can get it now with all the right paper work.but i'll have to wait 48 more days to find out. so i'll be close to 7 months by then.
so as you can see i'm stuck ...and dont know what to do.
Sunday, August 15, 2010
things that have been pissing me off.
I cant sleep right now.so,i thught i would make a list of things that have been getting under my skin.
I have heard/ been told not to clean a litter box while you are preg. drs,friends,nosey ass bitchy people that think they know everything. well,with Trinity i didnt care and didnt read up on that since i was not cleaning a litter box. Well ,now that we have J.D .i wanted to know. so...... yes,you can get "toxoplasmosis" from a cat...if you dont clean the litter box for atleast 3 DAYS and dont wash your hands right after. ok,so who does not wash their hands right after anyways? ..never mind i know someone like that. *gags* but they also "forget" to throw it out there that if you have been around cats your whole life you have more than likely had it. OH and you are more likely to get it from raw/undercooked meat. or just digging in the dirty outside. but lets forget that and just blame cats.
People who dont use the right car seat for their child. If Trinity is not big enough to go with out a car seat and is just now in a booster seat. then your kid that is the same as Trinity is not big enough to go with out a car seat and your tiny tiny 3 year old is sure the hell not big enough for the same kind of car seat as Trinity.i know so many people who say they love their kids but then just let them run around the car without a car seat or seat belt "but my kid knows how to undo the belts and buckles" well,so does Trinity but i dont know..... maybe if you tell them the truth about what will happen to them and if that does not work maybe...just maybe, show them some pics of kids that died in car wreaks.they might stop that? " but that will scare my kid.and i dont want that" I would rather my child/ your child/anyones child. know the truth and be safe. then be jumping around in the car where if you are not even in a wreak something could happen and kill them.
Trinity starts school this week. I'm not pissed about this,I'm very happy! i know she will love it. But,yes i am sad and people need to stop telling me "she wont cry long" yeah,she might not cry at all.. but i cried everyday i went to school. so,yes she might only cry a little or none at all but she also might cry forever.I dont want to hear "you will get a break from her" I like being around my kid....yes, sometimes i like my "me time" but i get it when shes asleep. I dont want to hear " you'll have a baby in Jan" that just makes it sound like i'm replacing her.If i post something on facebook saying i have cried or something like that cuz i'm thinking about her going to school. I'm posting it to get it off my chest. not so people can tell me crap.
the people that live across the road from me.... i would like to give you a big ol middle finger. lol
When i went to the ER last month. as i was sitting in the waiting room.i posted on facebook that i was at the ER. a few people said anything about it. and of the few only a VERY few were people i'm real close to.I didnt let it bother me. lots of times i miss things people post. and it was late when i posted it. i didnt hear from hardley anyone I'm real close to the next day.or days after. even after telling people in a text or on facebook again....but everyone cared to say something when i said i knew the gender but before i told i wanted to know what everyone thought.I didnt bother telling many people i went back to the ER the next day.Maybe i'm just being moody.even tho i have not been moody with Jameson. Maybe,i know how i would be if my friend had it happen to them. I think its crazy that the friend i heard from the most is someone i have only known a few months.she even made me cupcakes.
Now,I did hear from people. even the "hey how are you" text here and there from people made me feel better. one of my "best friends" still has not asked me anything about it since that night. i have talked with her in text but she has not said anything. just all talk about her boy/girl probs. oh well....live and learn...live and learn.
So,theres a lot more that has been pissing me off but thats all i can think of right now.
how about some happy things now? yes,Happy things.
Trinity
Jameson
Patrick and i have been together 8 years as of the 13th.
My family.
My animals.
Molly the owl and her family..Molly the owl.
taking pictures.
I have heard/ been told not to clean a litter box while you are preg. drs,friends,nosey ass bitchy people that think they know everything. well,with Trinity i didnt care and didnt read up on that since i was not cleaning a litter box. Well ,now that we have J.D .i wanted to know. so...... yes,you can get "toxoplasmosis" from a cat...if you dont clean the litter box for atleast 3 DAYS and dont wash your hands right after. ok,so who does not wash their hands right after anyways? ..never mind i know someone like that. *gags* but they also "forget" to throw it out there that if you have been around cats your whole life you have more than likely had it. OH and you are more likely to get it from raw/undercooked meat. or just digging in the dirty outside. but lets forget that and just blame cats.
People who dont use the right car seat for their child. If Trinity is not big enough to go with out a car seat and is just now in a booster seat. then your kid that is the same as Trinity is not big enough to go with out a car seat and your tiny tiny 3 year old is sure the hell not big enough for the same kind of car seat as Trinity.i know so many people who say they love their kids but then just let them run around the car without a car seat or seat belt "but my kid knows how to undo the belts and buckles" well,so does Trinity but i dont know..... maybe if you tell them the truth about what will happen to them and if that does not work maybe...just maybe, show them some pics of kids that died in car wreaks.they might stop that? " but that will scare my kid.and i dont want that" I would rather my child/ your child/anyones child. know the truth and be safe. then be jumping around in the car where if you are not even in a wreak something could happen and kill them.
Trinity starts school this week. I'm not pissed about this,I'm very happy! i know she will love it. But,yes i am sad and people need to stop telling me "she wont cry long" yeah,she might not cry at all.. but i cried everyday i went to school. so,yes she might only cry a little or none at all but she also might cry forever.I dont want to hear "you will get a break from her" I like being around my kid....yes, sometimes i like my "me time" but i get it when shes asleep. I dont want to hear " you'll have a baby in Jan" that just makes it sound like i'm replacing her.If i post something on facebook saying i have cried or something like that cuz i'm thinking about her going to school. I'm posting it to get it off my chest. not so people can tell me crap.
the people that live across the road from me.... i would like to give you a big ol middle finger. lol
When i went to the ER last month. as i was sitting in the waiting room.i posted on facebook that i was at the ER. a few people said anything about it. and of the few only a VERY few were people i'm real close to.I didnt let it bother me. lots of times i miss things people post. and it was late when i posted it. i didnt hear from hardley anyone I'm real close to the next day.or days after. even after telling people in a text or on facebook again....but everyone cared to say something when i said i knew the gender but before i told i wanted to know what everyone thought.I didnt bother telling many people i went back to the ER the next day.Maybe i'm just being moody.even tho i have not been moody with Jameson. Maybe,i know how i would be if my friend had it happen to them. I think its crazy that the friend i heard from the most is someone i have only known a few months.she even made me cupcakes.
Now,I did hear from people. even the "hey how are you" text here and there from people made me feel better. one of my "best friends" still has not asked me anything about it since that night. i have talked with her in text but she has not said anything. just all talk about her boy/girl probs. oh well....live and learn...live and learn.
So,theres a lot more that has been pissing me off but thats all i can think of right now.
how about some happy things now? yes,Happy things.
Trinity
Jameson
Patrick and i have been together 8 years as of the 13th.
My family.
My animals.
Molly the owl and her family..Molly the owl.
taking pictures.
Saturday, August 14, 2010
about 19 weeks.
here i am,,,,
a lot of people i know have a blog now. and since theres somethings i cant put on my facebook anymore.Well i can put whatever i want but due to some people, i just dont want to hear from them about it.sooooo...... HERE I AM!
I'm still working on making it look the way i want and all that fun stuff.
I'm still working on making it look the way i want and all that fun stuff.
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